Inspired but traped!

I've been going through other peoples blogs, reading, looking at pics and imagining others lives. So interesting. So after a hard day of that (that's about all Ive do at my supper exacting temp job) I feel so inspired!!!

I want to go climb mountains
make amazing confectionery delights!
Sew a 50's ball gown (*that's a funny looking word. Words are funny are they not? I mean that have sounds and meanings but they would not if some guy way long ago put this whole system together. - Now I say guy b/c it probably was. I mean they use to just lock up the ladies in the house or send them out to the files to work when the man kept the manner safe by sitting on his tuckous! - So just had to had that lol)
take tones of creative pics and play with them in photo shop!
Be a model and get pretty pics taken of me
paint
make pottery
design something!
Just let the creative juices flow!!!!!!! But wait....I'm super average chick, what creative juices do I have? Well I can me up silly songs to the tune of "Camp Town Races" but anyone can do that.
Hum......Well maybe I will just have to be satisfied with making cookies and cleaning my house.
Concerning the world and being famous for my creativity will have to wait till later.

Until then here are some people I love and find intriguing and inspiring:

www.megfowler.com
www.craftydaisies.com
www.thepioneerwoman.com
www.dooce.com
http://www.xanga.com/broncomom
www.xanga.com/johnandchels

I hope you like them!! Now go out and enjoy your weekend!!

Who am I? Her? or Her?

Do you know that girl? Who she is? What she was? Who will she become?

I dont know....I've changed who am....I've gone from boring, to crazy and careless, to old and what should be done with my life? I dont know......I feel as if Im getting too old for dreams and fantasy and that I need to setle down?
Should I give up my rambows, butterflys, and glittery hearts so that I can take up bills, the black, and the drugery?

I have a friend that is 53 and she still tells me that she is not sure what she wants to do when she grows up. I hope that I can be like that! But it is all to easy to be sucked into black hole that I like to call "Grown up Depresion" as in I've already done everything!! Graduated College check! Got married Check! Moved away from home Check! Have my own place check! Been to Eourope (Mexico twice) Check Check! All I need now is a house and a baby (may be getting a house this summer)
So I feel too sad and grown-up! and im not even close to 30!!!

So what to do now??? Become a Nurse? or go to beauty school? or maybe become an Ultrasound Tech (and get to see lots of little babies!!!)
OR I could sell jewlery or make-up or become a great fashion desiner!! or go totally granola and be super out-door chick!!!! Or maybe I should open a cake shope and be a pastry chef!!! (yum- but then I might get fat...)

Mum.....Maybe my life is not over after all??
There are so many things i could be....but were to start???

(*side I did not intend to take this road in my post....I was thining of writin about how it is crazy to be married and that everything changes. Im not who I was before, well I am but Im not.....When we got back form the honeymoon mail come for me with my old name on it and my hubby said "Thats not for you, She dose not exist anymroe." What??? my life before marring you is gone??? Wiped out??? Nada???
How wierd. Even now its been 6 months but Im still writing my old name and not the new one! Im just glad its so easy to turn an E into a B. I think people must think Im crazy when I go to write my name and I have to think a minute about it - now who am I? So that is what I was going to write about but maybe some other time. - End side*)

So I think that I still might not know what I am to do with my self and years I have left but I think that mybe the sun is comming out and I can pull myself out of the black hole after all.

Wow! God made the world so beautiful and bright and there are still things to do.....